Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Dear Journal



- Journal – I don’t know who and I don’t know why but I believe in angels.  My experience changed me for the better.

- Real life – (July 28th, 2 months after accident) “Some people are waiting for another Martin Luther King or an Abraham Lincoln, or a Gandhi or that special somebody to show up. What if there isn't anybody? This is our time. What if it's up to us?
Consider this, an almost unthinkable scenario: A world without violence. Where no child is abused, no wife battered, no friend raped. A world without terror, without threats, without wounds from intentional actions.  Where the strong provide for the vulnerable, where the vulnerable become empowered, where every kind of family is safe and secure,” Shie Fashe’s voice rang across the lush, green park, to the many spectators listening and watching.  The small town girl as she continued, “…and girls and boys and women and men have a fair and equal chance at the pursuit of happiness in a tolerant and talented society.
A world without violence. Peace.
We can't even imagine it.  The very thought eludes our grasp.
Why is that?”

- Journal – It is surprising how something that happens to you can change your out look on life.  What changes you doesn’t have to be big.  It can be a small thing such as pondering a thought for too long and letting it take over.  With that thought, anything is possible.  I know that now.

- Real life – (Continued) Is it a failure of our imagination?  Burn-out-disappointment? Seeing too much reality? Gang killings? Stalking? Rapes? Battering? Child abuse? Too many wars? Or is it fear of failure?  Are we too afraid to even dare to imagine it and therefore unable to even dream it?
I don't have the answer.”

            - Journal – People at my school have always degraded me as a person.  Possibly even thought of me as a lower life form.    I don’t know the reason behind their taunts, rude remarks and the nasty looks that I get in the hallways, but I think that once they see the world through my eyes, they will begin to understand who I am and what I have been through.  When that will be I have no idea.  I just hope it is soon.

- Real life – (continued) “But I know the Vision is the ability to see the Invisible.  To see beyond the violence and yet to place ourselves in front of it,  so we can take compassionate action and create peace… that's my definition of courage.
We are surrounded by violence everyday. We see it, feel it, witness it or read and hear about it. Of course there's also the heartbreaking violence of nature -- hurricanes and earthquakes, but I'm talking about intentional violence. The capacity for violence is within each of us.   Each moment that we refrain from hurting another being by speech, gestures, glance or deeds -- we are exercising courage. Often, thankfully, we are successful and in those quietly courageous moments… we are making peace.
Dare to make the invisible visible.” Shie Fashe was silent. 

Suddenly, as if some one had taken the mute button and turned the volume on, the park erupted in clapping, cheering and chanting!   Shie smiled and looked at the ground, then back up at the crowd.  So many of these people, who once treated her horribly, were proud of her.  Happy for what she was achieving.   It all started because of her accident.  Words were spoken and voices heard.  The time for change has started.  The word of Shie’s speech spread like wild fire through the town, and into neighboring towns, then on to big cities where thousands of people started speaking out.  Wanting to help Shie reach her dream.  Her dream was of a world without violence.   One day in the near future (no one knows when, for it still has yet to happen) a cease-fire between all the countries of the world.  All because of one girl choosing to make her voice heard.

            - Journal – I do have big dreams, people just don’t realize that.  Is it because I don’t have a voice to speak out? Is it because I am afraid of being judged?  Why is it that people choose to gang up on one person, choosing to put her down with words, gestures and rumors?   Is it because they have nothing better to do with their lives?  Nothing better to do other than pick on some girl who doesn’t seem to have a lot.  A girl who can be seen with one or two friends, a girl who is not surrounded by a huge crowd of people dressed in designer clothing.   A girl who seems to have nothing, nothing to live for, nothing to strive for.   I guess they don’t know me all that well… but I will show them.  Show them how wrong they are, how truly unfair that they are being.  One day… one day I will show them. 

            - Real life – (April 25th, present time) Sitting on the staircase of the high school was a young girl.  She is about 16 years of age.  Her name is Shie Fashe.  What Shie doesn’t know is that she is bound for great things in her lifetime.  She is not your typical teenager.  She has been through more that most people can even begin to understand.  Shie is average height, about 5’5, brown hair and matching eyes.  She does not wear designer clothing like most of the other girls her age.  Shie is a bully victim.   Her safe place is the staircase.  Between classes she can be found here madly writing in her journal.  During classes she sits in the front, constantly being bombarded with spitballs and paper planes.  But the spitballs and paper planes aren’t aimed at the teacher. They are aimed for Shie.  The teachers don’t do any thing about it because she doesn’t complain.  What every body doesn’t know is that she is slowly dying inside.  Thinking that no one cares and that no one can help her.  She is on a downward spiral.  Shie has a very low confidence level and due to the bullying from other people she has lost respect for her self and everything around her.  

            - Journal – Most people think that I am a quiet and shy girl.  But I am not quiet and shy.  I refuse to blend into the background.  I refuse to do what others wish for me to do.  I only wish to do what I want.  And I want my voice heard.  I want to speak out loud and clear and for the world to know who I am and what I am fighting for.  I fight for freedom, for peace, for the world to know no war.  I fight for respect.  We can all fight for what we want.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Construct A future

My little brother came up with an awesome idea.  
He wants to start a group called Construct a Future.  
And this group is for going around and building homes, schools and water wells 
in areas that have been hit by natural disasters such as earth quakes 
and hurricanes (also in 3 world countries).
My little brother is 9 years old!

He came up with the idea and he wanted me to come up with some sort of slogan
for the "group/organization"

"Helping each other, by helping those who have lost it all.
Brick by Brick
Life by Life
Creating a future for those who need it the most"

That is the slogan.
Reply and tell me what you think of this Idea... So far I have about 4 people who are willing to 
stand behind my brother and I, and who might help us get this Idea started.
I know that the hardest part is getting this Idea started.
Thanks

Friday, November 5, 2010

War

She watched him board the plane,
She is sad to see him go
his baby is on the way
only 3 months to go
but sadly daddy won't be home

Days turn into week
and weeks into months
the baby's room is painted
and the cribs all set up
but sadly daddy won't be home

Baby's cries echo down the hall
the baby is home after all
    - a knock at the door -
she answers it... but falls to the floor
daddy won't be coming home.

I support all of the people who have gone away to war
all of the love ones killed and all the pain that comes
i wish that all the violence would end
so that we could all live how we deserve
with your families all around us smiling and happy
not grieving for those whom they have lost
bring our soldiers home safely from the war, oh God of heaven and earth,
make it so there is no more hurt, pain or loss
make it so we all love one another, so we forgive each other
for our faults and mistakes, for our lies and our crimes
remember all those who have died and sacraficed their lives
they deserved their lives to but choose to give it up
so that we could live in peace and with freedom.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Or

The teens
With all the crushes
And all the problems
Hate
Love 
Acne
Astringent
Boys
Girls
Where to turn?
Run or hide?
Or
Should we stay in the open
Talk to the person who you crush?
Or
Leave your friends for new ones
In high school
Will you behave?
Or 
Try to wreck your life:
Drugs
Cigarettes
Sex
Pregnancy
Drop out
Or
Work to make it better:
Study
Abstinence
Harmless love
Go to college
I know
It's your life
You decide
These are all facts
Will you wreck your life?
Or
Will you work to make it great?
You decide

By my friend Sam thanks for the good words

Friends

Earth is full of interesting things
To do and to see
Earth is a place to meet with friends
No work and all play
There is a heaven on Earth
And its right where you are
Forever for friends
You got me through the day
When I thought I couldn't face it
Im not that strong
The fact that you keep trying
Is what sets you apart
Your an earth bound angel
But I call you my friend.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Life

You know you go through life wondering what is right and what is wrong.   Things happen that make you confused and unable to see your way.  And everything seems to be a confused puddle on the floor, where you don't know what is what and where your going.   I don't think that there is any one in the world who has them self all figured out because when you think you have your self all figured out, something happens that shows you that you were wrong.  And if you do have your self all figured out you are a very self centered person.   As young as I am, I have been through more than I can say.  I've felt things that I never want to feel again.  I have pain that keeps haunting me where ever I go, memories that haunt me, scars that show where I have been but nothing that shows where I am going.  I have fallen so far down that the light was gone and no one saw through the mask.
Welcome to the Masquerade.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Change


What is there for us in a world of war?
What is there for us in a world of crime?
What is there for us in a world of lies?
I am tired of not speaking out.   It is time. Time to speak out for what we believe, for what we need and want.  It is time to change.  We are the next generation.  I BELIEVE we can change the world.  It all starts with one step.  It starts with YOU
I HAVE A DREAM, a dream of a world with no war, a world with out crime with out lies.    I BELIEVE the world can change.
I HAVE COURAGE to speak out for what right, for our generation. 
I HAVE A CHANCE to make a difference, to make the world a better place.  We have the power to destroy, but we also have to power to shape and create.  Now is the time to MAKE A DIFFERENCE.  It is time to BE THE CHANGE.

Followers